I understand more.

I’m coming to terms with my anger, my expectations are lower. I know some people cared for me, and handled the situation, and supported me where they could.

Support is definitely crucial to the conversion process. More of it is needed for change agents of the future. I know there’s not enough money for anything these days, and so support can’t be written into the budget, but we as human beings can know that it is an essential part of the conversion process.

It is after all hard to have a therapeutic conversation on the topic with an outsider. You can’t share the frustration, for fear of creating panic.

That support will just have to remain part of two-way trust. One day, when we look back on it, these things will be funny. We will know we made the world a safer place, every single day. I don’t care if no-one else knows.

I think I know enough now to help support others through the conversion process. At least for the next few years, I need to be inspiring others to gain the skills and understand the problem too. Even if I became the most technically exceptional activist on the subject, I couldn’t achieve half as much as I could by inspiring others and walking them through the conversion process.

Of course, I’d like to gain more technical knowledge too, so I’ll have to split my time. Knowing the right proportions will require greater understanding.

“You let him use his strength, and you use your understanding.”

“It’s alright. There’s no one here but the fighters. “

-Mike in Redbelt